I used to love the idea of New Years resolutions but over time I just never ended up completing them and felt disappointed in myself when I failed. I can’t remember if I made any New Years resolutions to complete this year, but I’m not going to search for any in case I haven’t managed to do any of them. So this year it’s different, there is no new year new me, none of that nonsense I like me the way I am so what’s the point of creating a new me? I want to do one thing differently about myself that won’t change me but will help me instead and it’s something that I know I won’t be pressured into completing, it’s something that I can do in my own time.
I have a bad habit of putting myself down, I am the worst for doing it, I put a nice dress on and I make sure I point out the things I don’t like about it, I do my make up and hate the way I look and wipe it all off, I eat a decent meal and then sit there and criticise my food belly, I look in the mirror and no matter how much I get told “that outfit suits you so much” All I can see is the parts that I hate. And I’m putting a stop to that this year! This is not a case of learning to love myself because I said previously that takes time, this is just something that will help me along that journey.
I feel like getting into a habit of stopping me from bullying myself is a step that I need to take in the journey of self confidence, which has been a long journey for me.
Heres to a new year of positivity no matter what 2021 has planned.