It’s been a while I know, it has been busy so I haven’t really had time to sit down and write any posts out for the blog and if I’m honest I’ve had a bit of writers block too whenever I’ve had 5 minutes I sit down and think and nothing pops into mind. But I have updates for you all! I mean it’s not good news but I tested positive on a home test kit I got given from my work place and now I have to isolate until I get my results back from the PCR test, it’s all very confusing but while I’m waiting I have some spare time, even though I am working from home there are some bits that I cannot accomplish from home and will just have to wait until I can return to work. That means during isolation I have time for my coursework and some time for blogging so I’m going to try and get as many posts written as possible so that I am ahead of myself when I can eventually get back to work. Since being in isolation I’ve noticed my anxiety is a bit more intense, feeling very unwell doesn’t help as I’m extremely nervous about the fact that if I have got coronavirus, how bad is it going to get? Due to the nature of my job role being a business admin apprenticeship it means I have some coursework to do so at least I’m not completely stuck doing nothing, but where do I find the motivation from?
Ways to ease anxiety
It’s healthy to accept your anxiety, it’s completely normal and trust me you are definitely not the only one. There are a few things that I do to help keep my spirits up and even distract myself from the reality of isolation. I love listening to music, it is proven with me that music helps ease my anxiety, it doesn’t make it go away I will be honest about that, but it makes it a lot more easier to control.
Usually I would be living with my mum, but when we went into tier 4 and then a lockdown I was at my boyfriends at the time so missing family is a regular occurrence for me it can hit me at any point of the day, and the best distraction for me when I find myself getting emotional is to clean, I end up doing laundry, washing the dishes, now to any family reading this that may sound unusual for me but being with my boyfriend and it’s just us two at his flat, makes it feel like our own place and I want to take pride in that and the space that I am living in.
I enjoy reading to and I want to do a big shout out to my mum who dropped off some goodies to me (at a safe distance of course). She got me a good crime/thriller book and some magazines that I can’t wait to delve into, that is once I get my work and my course work done.
Accepting the anxiety is the most important thing, do not try and ignore it because I can guarantee you, that it will make you feel worse. Acknowledge that it is there and embrace it, work with it and not against it. It’s okay to have a good cry, I find that I feel better once I let my emotions out and cry it all out, it’s okay to be an emotional mess for a while, everyone else is the same and if you ever feel like that remember this post and remember that I’m an emotional mess too. We’re all professionals of lockdowns by this point let’s take it in our stride.
Stay home and save the NHS, Thank you to all key workers that have stayed strong throughout this pandemic!